Fear

I've been back to work now for 1 1/2 weeks.  I can't lie.  I'm tired.  I was dog tired Tues & Wed of last week, and I've been pretty tired this week so far, especially today.  I'm trying to stay positive.  Trying not to slip backwards.  My body is adjusting, I keep saying.  Am I totally confident that it will, in fact, adjust & the fatigue will go away?  No.  But I will not succumb!  I have been trying to go to bed early, but I have been having restless nights this week.  I don't have the energy to do much of anything in the evenings, so the house is a bit out of control.  I was prepared for that.  Eating too much take out, having a messy house, going to bed early.  Sure, I was prepared for that - during this transition period.  The fear is that the transition period is indefinite.  That this is just it.  That this is how things are gonna be.  Period.  Prove me wrong, body!!  I DOUBLE DOG DARE YOU!!!!